OrochiGeese's OG-FPD: Of Lessons and Lutefisk (11/1)

This originally started out as a Halloween costume joke once I realized how closely some of Orochi Army reminded me of My Hero Academia characters. Then it got kind of real. Jean's thoughts on OG-Joshi are pretty much mine. I really wanted to do more with it (and ubble) this year but it just was not to be. And I also feel like I should be more upset by that and yet I'm not. It's weird. I very much want to get both promotions running consistently again and yet there are days when I can't even think about doing it and am strangely fine with that. Then the next day I'll suddenly write a long RP. I figure I'm not the only one having this confusion about their usual recreational pursuits. But I thought it made sense from a canon perspective for MJC as to why OG-Joshi has dragged its feet.

Ever since FPW came out and FPR was replaced, it's been very hard for me to create enough edits to repopulate my rosters. I was actually working on two edits in early June. I finished one and she was ready for testing and the other one was going to be made after. Then Move Craft came out and I got distracted. I think we have enough OG-Joshi edits right now to run very small programs (almost like starting out Fire Promoter) but I want to have more edits ready just so I feel like the fed is alive in the game. Even if I'm not video capping, just having them to sim makes me feel like OG-Joshi is back. So I still have a little ways to go with OG-Joshi.

I also need to figure out how I'm going to run shows in terms of format.

King as Aizawa is perfect!

And I'm dying laughing at Kathy as Asui 🐸

MJC has a little of Asui's personality in her too.

Kazuo Saji is definitely that kid with the weird grapes on his head 😄

It used to be rare that I would have FPR or e-fed burn out but it did happen sometimes. The solution was exactly what you said and it always worked. I give it a week, play another game, and then I'd be right back into things simming, editing, and writing. Also, real life stress used to feed into my creativity. And I had enough free time to work with that.  But I've had less free time for a few years now and 2020 required me to compensate in many ways that has drained my time even more.  So even though the e-fed and edit ideas are flowing just as much as they used to, the time and energy to actually see those ideas through has dropped.   The energy has dropped too due to that lack of time but also because real life stress seems to take that energy away now. There are so many nights when I'm all set to do something with the game or my feds and then realize I have no writing energy or that my brain just refuses to entertain the idea of creating a new edit. It's frustrating. But it's been happening for like the past few years (well before the flaming bag of 💩 that 2020 left on all of our porches). So to some extent, I've just kind of gotten used to it. And, like Jean said, given everything happening in the world this year, it's hard for me to feel guilty about not doing more with my feds. 

I've been trying to think and work around it. I try to remind myself that I do not have the same time or energy to write my e-feds and create edits in FPW as I had in my e-fed prime 10 years ago. And I keep trying to find new and easier/quicker ways to present my e-feds in a way that acknowledges that. But then when I create something that feels "lesser" to me, I either reject it outright or work on it until it's back to my usual time consuming standard (that may end up being so long that the audience doesn't even delve into it cause everyone else is just as busy.) And I realize I spent way too much time on it and I can't produce that on a consistent basis. I need to find a different approach that yields something I'm happy with but doesn't take the same time I once needed for me to feel that way. I have a few ideas going forward but I don't know.

I still love doing this just as much as I always have.  The ideas are still flowing, I have a ton of storylines planned out, a lot of edit ideas, and my mind runs through 2-3 interactions per day between characters which I then note down for future RP's.  The truth is I wish I had more time for all of this than I used to, certainly not less. But since I don't have that time, it's incredibly confusing and frustrating to essentially channel the same energy and enthusiasm and plans I used to have through the time and energy limitations that I have now.

It's basically like drinking chunky soup through a thin straw 🤢😄